I was told I wasn't going to be able to have kids
I was told when I was 18 that I had severe endometriosis and my chances of having a child were going to be nearly impossible. You can imagine my surprise when I went in for a sinus infection appointment and the nurse that was taking my vitals told me she thought I was pregnant. I laughed at her and told her that was impossible. She proceeded to tell me that she had 7 kids and could tell when a woman was pregnant. I thought she had lost her mind! She told me to go in the next day and get a pregnancy test and that in the meantime they were going to prescribe me medication that was safe for pregnant women. I went home to go to bed and couldn't sleep. I couldn't get out of my head what she had told me. The next day, I went in and had the test done. I waited a day to call back to find out the results. I was pregnant. I was 22, not married, not mentally prepared for the news and the boy I was dating didn't want to have kids. That all changed when I told him our news. He was so happy he stopped the car in the middle of the road and just smiled. We ended up getting married, which I will talk more about in a different blog. Little Mickenzy was born 2 weeks early 7 months later. Her labor was unbearable, my life was going in a direction I was very confused and scared about. But this beautiful little girl put a light in my life I couldn't explain. She made me a mom and nothing could ever change that. Was I ready for this responsibility? Did I know how to be a mom? Twenty-two years later I'm still learning. It's been rewarding, heartbreaking, sleepless nights, tears, and blessings. I have made SO many mistakes. Many I'm not proud of. But one thing I do know is that we talk about these fears and mistakes. I own them. I wasn't ready for a child and that wasn't her fault. She was placed in my life for a reason and we were going to have to learn together on how to maneuver through this life. Words can't express how happy I am that the doctor was wrong about me not being able to have kids. I can't imagine my life with out them. I will talk about my other 2 children in my next blog.