In the past few days, I was hoping all of this was only a bad dream; until yesterday when I saw you slowing going down, I realized you truly left us behind and became a beautiful angel...

We were supposed to meet today, weren’t we? Why you didn’t wait for me? I've been so looking forward to seeing you and have saved a lot to tell and show you; but now it becomes my forever regret:(

I decided not to speak at the service. I won’t be able to hold myself; and more importantly, I want to keep all our precious memories among ourselves, spice moms. Nick will grow up to the man you wanted; he is and will always be your pride. All our kids will still grow up together like cousins, and I will continue to host our Memorial Weekend and New Year Eve parties for them. please, have a good rest; now it's our turn to take care of the rest.

I am missing you so much....

We've missed you every day. I hope you know what a positive impact you had on everyone around you. You made our office a better place to work. I've missed you walking in each morning with a smile and a wave, saying "Morning. Morning." You made everyone around you better co-workers and more importantly, better people. You are the kindest, most generous and caring person I've ever known. The world is poorer without you.

仿佛还在昨天，我们坐在教室里享受着午后的阳光，
仿佛还在昨天，我们彼此分享着自己的育儿经，
仿佛还在梦中，梦中的你恬静地微笑着，
仿佛还在梦中，梦中的我找到了灵丹妙药。
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还没来得及与你多相处，你却悄悄地走了，
我只能一遍一遍地告诉自己：
你离开是因为你不想身边的人跟着你一起疼，一起痛，
你离开是因为你要要把快乐留下，留给你身边的每一位。
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我知道你舍不得的，
我知道你放不下的，
我知道你一直想陪伴的，
请让我托梦给你，告诉你Nick成长的点点滴滴。
也请你托梦给我，让我帮你完成你未了的心愿！

親愛的琪璐，

今晚和你告別了，可我还是无法接受这个事实，你离开了。

你是那么～要强，从不愿意麻烦任何人，但直到今晚我才醒悟你走前为什么会主动让我为你做一两件不足挂齿的小事。你在纵容我的任性，怕我会怪你不够朋友，是你在满足我的执拗，为了让我能开心，你违反了你一向的原则。比起你，我觉得自己好卑微，这其实不是你一向的做法！😢是我反应迟钝，没有好好珍惜我们的友谊，没能在你最痛苦的时候多做一些事情。没有照顾好你，没能对你更好一些，没能陪伴你多走一段人生路。

对不起，琪璐！Nick 我以后会像自己孩子一样照顾。别担心。求你的灵在天堂得到安息～

永远想念你～

very sadden and shocked to hear. we haven't met. I brought my son Yikai to a martial arts summer camp last year. Nick and his grandma was in the same group. He seems like a good kid, nice and smart. I figure he came from a good family with a great mom. All the prayers with Nick and the rest of the family!

琪璐，我是武术队后面加入队员的家长，虽没见过面，但我收到过你一次次的问候。去年暑假武术队在中国参赛，你没有去，但在家里为我们鼓劲加油，为我们取得的成绩欢呼，为我们提供旅程建议。你给我们留下了关爱，温暖，高贵的温柔 ------
Nick拥有被爱照耀的生命，他会健康成长，活成你希望的样子。永远爱你！

Dear Qilu,


This morning I sent you a message, and I asked you if you had ordered any food this week. You didn’t reply. I thought you were asleep, and I told myself: “It’s too early. Wait a bit longer”...but I never guessed you had left us without a word! This can’t be true, since we just talked on Sunday! Then, snow fell all over Short Hills, and silenced our words. I started reviewing/listening our chats one by one — throwing more sadness into the sad air. Are you somewhere watching? Can you hear our cry? Why does your voice sound so clear?

After our gathering in your home, I brought both boys to my house. Finally, Nick met Bella! He told me one day he might want to raise a dog, too. Bella is a well-behaved puppy. They played games together, and watched a movie afterwards. (Today’s snow was planed for you, wasn’t it?) After dinner, Nick asked me if I could take him home, right before us stepping out of the doorway, a message suddenly came into my mind: boys need haircuts. I couldn’t hold back my tears — I feel so sorry for not taking care of this sooner when you could see. Are you reminding me that? I felt so guilty. Tomorrow I will bring them to see the hairdresser. I will make sure Nick looks perfect in front of you during your viewing on Thursday.

My dear, I’m truly, truly blessed to have you as my forever friend. I wished I could tell you in person how much you are missed. You are always so generous, always put others' needs above your own. You never brought any burdens or negative thoughts to others. Your great spirit will be always living inside our hearts. We will never forget your kindness. I pray that God will grant your mom, son and husband the strength!

Rest In Peace, my dear! May God give you eternal rest!!

Love,
D.

Qilu, don't worry about Nick. He will grow up to be a kind, smart and brave man, because of you...